It's quite staggering when we fully grasp the depth of debris we've allowed to bury us over our lifetimes. I don't think we can ever really know the enormity until we begin digging ourselves out from beneath the rubble. I began 22 years ago and gee-crimanies I'm still digging!
So when I look back on 2017 I can sum it up quite simply: EXCAVATION TIME!
Many years ago, I noticed that I would often put up a strong front, but in actuality was extremely passive - a form of overcompensation I guess you could say. I also realized that I had become overly defensive and protective of my boundaries and freedom. Something certainly exacerbated by two abusive relationships. I use the term “boundaries” loosely because truth be told, I had none at the time.
At first, I was taken back by this realization of myself, "Hadn't I worked through all this?" Since that time however, and certainly over this past year, I've come to truly understand, that just like the layers of an onion, there are layers to our healing. Who knew that changing my career and getting a piddly part-time job working for someone else, would play such a key-role in deepening my authenticity. Life is amazing like that, isn't it? Walking into that new, unfamiliar world where I didn't know the policies, people or the procedures took me right out of my comfort and face-to-face with my passivity.
Sparing you all the insipid details, I will just cut-to-the-chase by saying that as I head into 2018, I'm standing evermore firmly in my power. No longer seeking validation, approval or acceptance from anyone. For those are things we each must find and gift to ourselves. Alongside all this, 2017 was the year I made the choice to free myself of all disingenuous relationships. I just don't have time for such foolishness anymore.
So CHEERS 🥂 my friends, to a brand new year laced with more love, more peace, more freedom and especially more of who we truly are!